If you’ve really screwed the pooch, delete all internet presence and leave the country. No one in Costa Rica will look too deeply into your history. Leave illegally if you have to. Better to start over than many other options.
If you’re too fucked for that, like you’re an active pedophile or a SBF figure, there’s another option that I’m not going to mention by name. Some modes of living - bring Derek Chauvin right now for example - are going to scare you so badly that when they end, you’re still fucked.
Generally though, restarting is possible and much more common than you think.
Why do you think it's better I wonder? You don't experience the nothingness since you cease to exist (assuming you meant no afterlife which the nothingness implied), so you aren't able to compare it to anything and say ”man I'd rather have antagonizing pain".
I'd take that chance, frankly. I don't assume afterlife or not, and either an afterlife or nothingness is better than a lifetime of unsolvable misery. I am not Zen, I don't think I'm able to become Zen.
If you’ve really screwed the pooch, delete all internet presence and leave the country. No one in Costa Rica will look too deeply into your history. Leave illegally if you have to. Better to start over than many other options.
If you’re too fucked for that, like you’re an active pedophile or a SBF figure, there’s another option that I’m not going to mention by name. Some modes of living - bring Derek Chauvin right now for example - are going to scare you so badly that when they end, you’re still fucked.
Generally though, restarting is possible and much more common than you think.